Unhappy

I need somewhere to have a rant and this seems as good a place as any.

It is Ten Tors weekend - husband is away from Thursday to Sunday and I usually have a great time eating healthy food, going to the gym and just relishing a few days of having the bed to myself.

Somehow this year hasn't been like that. I have felt compelled to check the regular team updates on the Ten Tors website, I have hardly been out of the house and I have felt all weekend as though I should be with him and not here on my own.

He has just phoned me to tell me that all their teams are safely home with no fall-outs. So they all get a medal and a certificate - the whole team has to finish to be awarded a certificate - and it is one per team of 6.

Rod was also presented with a medal - for long service. He was in tears on the phone as he knew nothing about it. Why oh why didn't one of the other leaders tell me? I knew I should have driven to Okehampton this morning. He will have had hugs and kisses from all sorts of people but not from his wife.

I feel alone and left out and I don't like that feeling.

End of March update

I have been unwell again. My new plan started well and seemed to be producing results but then I was felled again by the cold that is just going around and around the office. This time last week I was on Sudafed and unable to move anywhere without a box of tissues.

Feeling a lot better now. OU studying is going well although I am still waiting on the result for my first essay.

I am away over Easter at Mum's and am taking it easy on the exercise until I get back from there. In fact I have pretty much decided that I just need to keep things ticking over now rather than trying to achieve the impossible.

At my age I am never going to be able to lift the weight needed to get the body of a 30 year old (nor have the time to spend on it). So I shall do what I need to do to get fit and healthy but forget about (fingers crossed) trying to be really lean and really *fit*.

No pics this post which makes it dull and boring to look at. Sorry to my few followers.

I hope you have a Happy Easter and the weather is kind to us all. xx

Mid March Update

Where does the time go?

Two weeks ago I decided to make a new start and just try to rein in my bad habits.

I've had a couple of good weeks and lost 3lbs.

My study time before work seems to be more effective than after a long, hard day and the gym isn't as busy as I thought it would be at 6pm. So all in all it is going well.

Hubby has been cooking our evening meals more often recently and serving mine on a smaller plate or bowl so he is looking after me too. Love you xx


I thought you might like to see my summery tray that brightens up breakfast time. This is a bowl of porridge made with half and half oats and Sainsburys Free From Rice and Buckwheat Flakes and unsweetened soya milk. Topped with Be Good To Yourself Greek Yogurt, a small banana and a drizzle of maple syrup. Delicious.




This was yesterday's breakfast in progress - a pancake made with 2 eggs, a packet of Aldi's instant oat cereal, loads of cinnamon and some blueberries. Don't you love the pancake slice? We bought it for £1 in Poole Pottery of all places. I topped the pancake with Clearspring Apricot and Apple puree. It kept me full all morning.





And how about this for a cool idea? Pitta Pizza Marinara. Wholemeal pitta breads spread with red pesto then topped with mashed sardines and grated cheddar. Pop under the grill until the cheese melts and starts to brown. These were absolutely delicious and will be on the menu again soon.




And now for something completely different :0)



Hubby has been busy this week building a dry stone wall at home. He added another couple of rows roadside after I took this and it is finished now. Looks fabulous and he managed to save all of the snowdrops and tiny sprouts of daffodils. He has been saving stone since we moved in - in 1991.





And after all that typing and uploading of photos it's time for tea. Mine's a redbush in my little teapot. This always puts me in mind of The Mad Hatter's Tea Party for some reason.





Thanks to my followers for looking in and for any comments. I hope to report more positive news again soon.

oops

Day 4 of new routine and I hit the stop button instead of the snooze button! OOPS!!! But I was tired so I am not too cross. I can't lie in bed after I wake up so it was a necessary snooze :-)

Yesterday was good - I made it to the gym and studied in the morning and lunchtime.

But I broke a tooth (on a flapjack!) and will miss my lunch break today as I have an emergency dental appointment. No doubt my wallet will be a lot lighter by this evening.

Busy day ahead but I think the food will be OK as it is usually soup or a smoothie after a filling.

New Routine

I started yesterday with a good study session before I showered. And I went to the gym after work. It wasn't too busy although the free weights area was full of beefcakes. I may have to rethink my weights routine if I can't get in there.

I was easy on myself and did 15 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes on the bike. Then I spent 20 minutes in the sauna. That was lovely after a hard day at work. Very relaxing. Came home to a simple supper of crumpets and peanut butter (I am certainly being gentle with myself!). Felt very relaxed and ready for an early night.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Another month gone

Well February seems to have disappeared without me achieving very much. To be fair I have had a horrid cold and felt below par for about 3 weeks. That finally seems to have passed, thankfully.

My weight is still a major issue and I have been overeating this week too.

SO:-

I am going to make some major changes to my routine as I think a good shake up is what is needed.

My new plan is to get up early (6am) and study for an hour or two before work.
I will go to the gym after work 3 times a week. I prefer early morning exercise but I also prefer early morning study! I used to belong to a gym that didn't open early so spent several years going straight from work and getting homme after 8pm.

I am also hoping that exercising in the evening will mean I eat less for supper, sleep better and therefore lose weight and feel healthier.

My husband is in agreement and will feed himself on Monday, Wednesday and Friday (he already does this on Friday as he goes to Scouts and has to leave before 6).

I hope that my end of March post will have something positive to report. If not I shall close this blog as it is not fulfilling its purpose of motivating and inspiring me.

Thank you to those of you who read it. I appreciate your comments.

Poorly

I am off sick today - felt awful first thing this morning - couldn't speak and my balance was all over the place. I didn't feel safe to drive so I stayed at home.

Luckily I have decided to go to Taunton by train tomorrow as I don't think my head will be up to the drive - and certainly not the return journey after 5 hours of history tutorial :-)

A lazy day today and hopefully a good night's sleep and I should feel better tomorrow. Fingers crossed.